OMG !!

很多习惯要改阿~
今天算是我的新开始吧~
1）找到第一份工
2）正式拿到P lessen
3)解决了我的心结

我不是怕面对长大后生活的挑战
而是我怕要面对那孤独感和恐惧感。。。
那种心跳很快
胸口郁闷
睡觉睡不到
想东西想到手脚发冷。。。

那种孤独感~很可怕
现在想到都全身冷！

huh ~
揭开未来神秘的面纱~
要很大勇气
因为不知道是否和你想象的一样
如果和你预料不一样的
那种孤单握紧拳头自己面对的心情~
冷~

我现在很肯定的一点是~我向来都是靠自己在撑
没有真正把握的心、我的包袱交托给神~
到底要真怎样做？
才能学习到我现在做不到的这一 点
快点向神认错
。。。 神阿~原谅我的懒惰~T.T
hehe >@<

误会！！

没了解清楚
就定别人的错！！
太过分了！！
既然这么不爽~！ 就不要叫别人出拉！
很过分咯！~

一开始就有偏见~
就算我做任何事在她眼里都是错的

关心~也变成敷衍
还要用'WTF'
犯下很大的错咩？
要用语气将重的字眼~

将辛苦，就不要委屈自己啦
弄得我好像千古罪人似的

就只是出去没叫她~ 后患延至二年
一句话概括！ 小气鬼！

20 dec ...

omg!!!
2 DAY i gt a heart attack
bcuz of taken test of car
.....
yesterday when i slept ... i feel my body so cold
bcuz worry about my test
many type of 'mayb' in my mind

i try my 2 cool dwn myself ...
luckily i PASS!! hurray!!

i think god is helping me.
cuz i seem like blur blur then finish my test
thx god!!! muackz !!!i love u god

test 4 my mum 2 ~4 spending so much money ....
nw i m so bother about money

so many planning nd 2 planing carefully
nw i feel i really grow up
muz have adult mature ...

althoough i feel scare ...
although no 1 can help me
bt i really comfirm
god is holding my hand 2 walk along my life time
buz of god
i gt strength
n i will b strong enough
2 done n greather thing
....
hope so
i can find a job
finish my plkn tranning
n fins a suitable course
2 further my study
!!!

sinopsis of tis week ..^.^

wow!!
3 mr subject go on ...hehe
bt nw i nt worry about my exam
i worry about take p lessen exam
my teacher say me always nervous n forgetful
haizz cham lo
i gt so worse meh
????
hope i am nt ...
no mood jor la T.T

yesterday go singing at pm ...wahaha
let my skulmate c dou
errr~
gt bitbit fish leh ...haha
bt quite hapi 2
hehe

dec ...church gt so many event
feel buzy bt excited oso
cuz i can help my papa in the heaven do sumthing leh ...
although is small thing bt i feel hapi oso
haha

hopefully ,
i promise my 'papa' d thing i can do it ...
hehe ....GRACE!! u muz do it ar !!!u can d ...

lastly ....
hrmmm....i change bck my blog d link jor ....haha
c hw long will be discover by sumbody la ...haha
i think will nt d la
bt c dou jor tell me ar ...haha

blur dao ~

现在病了，
可是偏偏在我想认真读书的时候
竟然给我生病！！
早知道之前就不要将懒啦。。。
头很晕阿@@

HAHA
昨天和我同学去吃火锅
咋到！！ 竟然遇到小学同学哦。。。
他看到我那东西吃时，
他竟然大声讲~yer ! wei li ting ar ~
fish到!!
他的yer 到底包含什么意思啊...

小组趣事o(^.^)o

今天，在小组。。。
上有关接纳的课
很不巧，我们几个被分到同一组
==。。。
有点不可思议 。。。:D
不多不少。。。全部到齐了
可能有祷告
然后神把我们把我们派到同一组吧。。。
Who knows?
可能有些恩怨要解决吧。。。
（那时我心里是将想的）
接触比较多，自然磨擦也比较多咯
我讲过的我会尽量做到:P
haha ...
到现在还是觉得有点不可思议咧？
跟我同组的弟兄姐妹？
你认为呢？

理智？感性？

我到底是理智。。。？

还是感性的？

我行动是理智。。。

我思想是感性。。。

这两者相互在我里面拉扯

让我快喘不过气了>.<

where is my doctor ....

Am i 2 stupid ...i hope i can cut off all my hormone gland ...tat CAN make ME feeling bad ...really ...haizz
wat tat i doing ?!i should nt hv tat kind of feeling ...damn bad feeling disturb me 2 prepare 4 my spm ...pls shut off ..leave me away ...i dun wan dunwa DUN WAN REALLY DUN WAN !!!PLS LET ME OFF ...i wan cry ar ...i hv no choice ,i hv 2 suffer ...is tat sumbody can treat me ??where should i find the 'doctor '?if i seek ? can i seek it ?where ??where ?? help me pls T.T

internal cold or external cold

ERM, u think ...internal cold more horible or external cold more horible ...i feel tat internal cold again...please la !!dun cum find me again...i dun like cold ...

T.T again and again ...Maybe god training me or want me know about his thinking ...i think the pain that he have is 100000000000000x than mine ...ok la ~gt god pain with me ...i think more comfortable ...bcuz just him understand me ....

Nw i saw every church member had overcame their problem ...this give a big effort ....GOD ...wait me ...i won lose them gek !!keke ...

But ,can i dun wan do homework ...Can i jz study ?doing homework wasting my time leh ...
just oni left 25 days .....scare ><...

BUT,wit the strength of god ,i can do anything a-men !!10 A (P/S:haha correction i jz wan 10 A- )TRY MY BEST !!

help aaaar~~~.........haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

an apologize

Dunno still gt hw many month tat i can still stay in kl...i jz noe tat after december...i nd go 2 plkn 4 3 month...after tis i mayb go other state..2 continue my study...mayb around 4 year...during tis 4 yrd ,i nd 2 leave my family ...my fren n my chruch...really nt wiling 2 leave...bt i have 2 study 4 my future and i can't think the image if i leave hear 4 4 yrd...1 month ady can change many thing ...4 year will change more...
mayb all my close fren bcum nt close jor ...many thing tat they go through i cannot experience wif them ....jz try my best dun think 2 much..treasure tat time tat i can stay wif them...i dun wan hv any regret in my life...enjoy tat every second...every minute ...every hour tat we can experience something 2gether...
At here i apologize 2 a fren ...i dunno u gt angry me or nt ?bt comfirm d is u gt beh song me...sry ar bro...pls 4give me...

i hv no choice~

为了要自我保护，
我必须要变得很快~
这也是唯一的
方法。。。

I WON LET THE STUPID GRACE BCK AGAIN!!!

There is enough 4 me 2 tahan until this day...although i noe the truth bt i still hope u can tell the truth by ur mouth ...bt if u think nt nd 2 find me keng ,jz do wat u think~

...sum mr at here i promise 2 u n myself i won let the stupid grace bck again~u nt nd worry

about it any more ...cuz i say it i can do it...

i really treat u as my best fren ,hope u won like tat again~dun treat relationship as a ply ply 4 fun...

tat every word u had said ...it will bring out effect ...dun jz thing ply ply...

i wil b sad my fren tat i have noe so long time bcum like tis~ dun angry about tis...i noe u can accept

it...cuz i din mention ur name at here...hope u will learn a lesson from last time d thing...dun waste the

chance tat god let u learn thing...i sure u noe i saying about u~
p/s:tis is the last time i sad bcuz of u, it won happen again....

我需要主

我需要主,
在梦的尽头,
当我迷路,
引导我走义路,
当我迷失方向，
当我走失路途，
让我俯伏在你脚前，
破碎的心
就深受安抚
孤单的路
陪我走过孤独
无论顺境
或是
十架在前头
让我走
坚固我心跟随主
让我说主我爱你
发自内心来说爱你
完全顺服
完全献上自己
并用信心来等候你
让我说主我爱你
发自内心来说爱你
完全顺服
完全献上自己
以至我用不退拒



today while sing ing tis song,suddeny my tear gonna cum out..bt beside me still gt my fren at there...so try my best 2 hold on it...
i really beh tahan tell jesus i love him
same oso i cannot hear other ppl say jesus love me
i will cry...haha
some ppl think me ar crazy
bt i quite long time din cry 4 jesus ady...
i really feel sry 4 jesus
bcuz my love is nt enough 2 love him
i m a selfish person
akways jz think about myself
i ady 4gt about jesus
still gt jesus waiting me
and the most love me d person in tis world
i 4gt bck 2 his hug
i try my best 2 done my thing by my own strength
i m so sry jesus
i wanna shout it out~
JESUS I LOVE
JESUS I M SO SO SO SO SO LOVE U

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星星阿~好美的星星...很可惜那只是美丽的甜头...

而且就只是这么一次,好像再看看多一次那个情景,

那个一直让我紧捉不放...让我有希望的一幕...

让我感动的那一幕...

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待了13年的教堂突然间要搬,很多东西都很不舍,尤其是图书馆的桌子.回想起以前总是喜欢爬上跳下,拿tilam 来玩，最重要的是我们还在教堂里踢足球。。。哈哈，大伙儿玩的不予乐呼。。。好想在搬教堂之前再来一场足球赛！你们的脚快点好啦。。。

好想念以前充满雅气的自己，没有烦恼，这个教堂，充满着我小时候的回忆。离开了也是我长大的开始。新教会=新开始， 加油啦！不懂会有什么事会发生咧 ？我相信我的日记会更加精彩了。。。

心情好复杂哦~

等待已久的事，发生是发生了，可是我从来就没有想到这么快。
是我胆小，还是事实是如此。也有可能使我要求太高，又或者是我防卫心太强。一旦太靠近，我的防卫红灯就会亮起。
不想
不想
不想
不想。。。。。。。。。。。
haizzz
难道我期待的，不会如我所愿的发生。。。。。。

朋友风暴

朋友~
朋友真的可以一生一起走吗？就像伍思凯的歌里所唱的吗？还是友情太弱，一拍就散，不堪一击呢？最重要抱着坚持的心，不要将快放弃，不然就没何和好的机会了。。。其他人也做不到什么，只能靠你自己啦！坚持住啊！

快快过去！

Exam~hu~

my examination week jz go jor 5 day oni .still gt 1 week 4 day ,nd 2 pass through...
OmG!!But i din hv stress of exam...jz feel lazy when do rivision...u noe la ,hw thick the book...c jor oso no mood 2 study liao...
Dunno y ?i no mood 2 study n oso no mood 2 play...jz feel like 2 stay at home ,spend the time wif my pc or my bed ...nw I bcum a ulat liao...if u say me lazy,din oso ,i try my best 2 do rivision,go tuision class ,doing add math hmwrk...am i lazy ?I can totally say nt!!
start from april...mon 2 sun every day i oso buzy...no 1 day is free...jz hope god gif me power n energy...haha
The thing tat i only can do ...jz study hard!get ur best result in SPM...
Other thing dun think 2 much liao...waste time ,waste energy n waste mood...NO BENEFIT!!

17 岁之约

今天替丽庆祝了她17岁的生日，我们去年就讲好啦。17 岁生日要大搞。。。
虽然已开始丽的反应有点冷淡，不懂是不是因为我们没请她吃东西。可是，她不知道 ，好戏还在后头。
如果你们要找一个安静又省钱的地方。建议:JJ 的露台。。。CAR PARK THERE...没错，我们就是带了丽带JJ的露台吹蛋糕。。。特别吧！其实我也是抄人的...HEHE!虽然今天拍的照片没有特别好看。但， 却是我们曾经留下来的痕迹。值得纪念。。。

草莓蛋糕^.^
没有吃过咧...有没有人请我吃?哈哈
我看应该是没有的啦...
只好自己请自己啦....

很想学会的一首歌

最近迷上了一套戏，爱上了里面的一首歌。。。我真得很想很想学会这首钢琴曲。。。悲哀的是我是不会钢琴的~只是懂皮毛而已。。。不过！我会努力，我一定要学会这首歌！

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不过还有坏消息，我妈进医院了。。。suspek of denggi....
妈快点回来吧~

Sick jor....

Oh,nw my body cum out many titik merah,at least less than last time when i form 3...
Nw my mum oso fever,cham ...gt a fren kenan denggi then nw stay at hospital cuz denggi...
If a person still in her memory,should i tell her the truth...if tell out she will very hurt ,at last the little memory oso gone.Should i b so cruel....haizzzz....
jz hope every thing will b ok soon,me ,my mum ,my fren n she ~oso fast fast fast d b ok ...haha
i like tis song 《默默无语 》。。。so nice,cuz same wif my feel nw...feel like wanna 2 cry...haha
so hungry nw,go eat 1st...bb~c u nxt time....

因为我。。。haizzz~

今天听到一个不怎么好的消息。我朋友告诉我，某人因为我，变会以前将乱乱讲话，对事情不理不睬。问题是， 我什么都没有做到，我也不明白我做了什么。上个礼拜看到他静静的坐在电脑那里。看着电脑，很像耍忧郁将。
只是希望，他快点放下我，因为。。。。我现在也有一个很难放下的人在我的心里面。虽然我不敢在他面前承认。但只能说加油咯

RuBbEr BaNd...

哎~ 每次要写blog 时，都不能post。再不就是妈妈在旁边，不然就是 不懂要怎样写。。。。
等到有机会写时又不懂要写什么。
不过form 5 的日子倒是挺爽的，虽然add math 的功课很多，但我却没有觉得压力，反而觉得很享受 。自虐吧！不过我可是一条很好的橡皮筋。。。yeah!!!
不过再好的橡皮筋也会有断掉的一天。不过， 我希望，在我断掉之前，可以让我找到垃圾桶，然我倒掉我心里的垃圾。。。 不让就会像下面的球一样。。。

2010年的第一天...

今天到朋友家看鬼戏。38的咯，别人全都到外面走街。我们几个人却躲在家里看鬼戏。不过倒是喊得满爽 。不过，我感觉到我的朋友今天很像有比较轻松。应该是敢面对了吧。。。希望受困的人统统都可以解脱。。。只差我自己了吧。。。
我还是信不过我的blog...只是打算写爽的。。。之前的基地被人家发现了。。。不敢在那里写了。
哈哈，我发觉少年人是一班很好研究的对象，不要觉得我变态。因为今天发生了一些事。。。让我觉得这种半大人的人们的经历是一生当中最精彩的阶段。。。